~KayTayYay!

Katie...
Mac is having a similar problem. He is on the other viewpoint though.
Knowing two awesome people with such crappy problems makes me feel terrible. Especially because I can't fix them or even begin to make it better. I look at my life and everybody else's and I begin to wonder, can love actually come with happiness. It is so filled with jelousy and want and bad things to even be considered something that sounds somewhat appealing. I feel like crap knowing that you can't be happy because you like someone who loves someone else. I know you feel like crap. We can feel like crap together. This is one of those times where I really really want to help, but I just don't know how. Then I look at you and Kevin. Kevin is in love and he's happy and dealing with all this drama. You are in love and you don't want to start drama. Props for that!!! We don't need another Kat. I'm proud of you for considering how it would make other people feel if you revealed your feelings to the world. God doesn't hate you! Life doesn't hate you! Life is full of obstacles, how you overcome them is your decision. I seriously cannot help you with this one because I just don't know how. I feel helpless. I seriously question if someone can be completely happy while they are in love. I am not scared to admit to you that even though I may appear happy all the time, I'm not. I have my moments where I doubt if I am doing the right thing or if my future will hold what I want it to. I can't control these things. I had to learn that the hard way. If only we had a crystal ball that would tell us what to do to save us time and broken hearts we wouldn't be having this conversation, but sadly we don't have one.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that at some point everybody goes through this. Everybody has issues with love and happiness and it is just something they will have to work through. I can't fix it but i'm here to listen and offer what little bit of advice I can.

"You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground and I'll be the wings that keeps your heart in the clouds"

You can call me at 3 in the morning if you want to. I promise I will try not to growl at you, but I will definately talk you through it.

I love you! You're my bestie and you always will be <3
Until next time,
Britany <3